Have you ever been in this place in your life and all at once, you realise that you are a mess? It just hits you out of no where. Nothing drastic in your life changed to make you see it. You are just sitting there and then BOOM! Reality sets in.
This happened to me a few weeks ago. Maybe you’ve never been through this before. I hope you don’t go through it. I hope that each and everyone of you reading this never sit in the predicament that I was sitting in. A predicament is defined as a difficult, unpleasant or embarrassing situation. That is exactly what I was living in once I realised what my life had come to. Never, in my days on Earth, did I dream that I would actually be in a place where I literally had no idea who I was to the point of not even noticing how badly I needed healing. I mean, come on! Talk about situational awareness. So yes, I was in a predicament. Difficult, unpleasant and embarrassing. All three of those words form a perfect description of the situation I found myself in and I’m sure many of you have also found yourself in at a time in your life.
I will tell you this much, it is a wonderful place to be for one reason and one reason only. That reason is this: It is in moments like these where you should be totally assured that God desires to heal every wound you have from the inside out!
About 3 weeks ago, I was sitting at my desk and then, all at once, came the ultimate pain of realisation. My heart was physically aching and it was like I could actually feel my mind syncing in with the pain in my heart. I remember placing both my hands over my heart and as tears began to roll down my face, I looked up and said “God I need you to heal me now!” Over the next few hours, I meditated on the Word and Spirit of God. He showed me that He absolutely wanted to mend my brokenness! He has wanted to for months, but was only waiting for me to notice where I was otherwise, how would I see the work of the Lord? I hope that makes sense to you. If you don’t see where you are now, how will you ever see the life change or the hand of God? I challenge you to take a look at your life and search for God’s hand in it all because He does, in fact, have a hand in every aspect of your day.
So, after God made me aware of all my “stuff,” it was time for me to get to work so that He could also get to work! For those of you who don’t know, let me let you in on a little known secret, God is our healer! Jehovah Rapha: The God that HEALS!
Now, it’s time that I take you on a journey through my healing process. The first step isn’t really a step because once God shows you how broken you really are, it just sort of happens anyway. You must humble yourself before the Lord. When you began the healing process, you will struggle. It is not easy, even in the slightest. You have to let go of the reigns. You cannot control what God is about to do in your life so get out of His way. Hold onto this verse to give you strength throughout.
James 4:7-10 says, “Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Be wretched and mourn and weep. Let your laughter be turned to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourself before the Lord and He will exalt you.”
The next step is a lot more simple. Realise that God wants to heal you because He LOVES you! Keep this in your heart forever! Another thing that I did during this time was seek out a prayer partner. Make sure that this person knows what’s going on in your life and will lift you up in prayer and will rejoice alongside you while God takes you on your journey to healing and restoration. (Shoutout to my sister in Christ, Anna McFarland! I love you so much sis!)
After you figure out step two, step three kicks in and you have to start looking inward and scraping away some of the old eschar that you don’t even notice anymore. You have to forgive all the people who have hurt you in the past! Even if you thought you already had forgiven them, have you actually forgotten about the hurt they brought to take up space in your heart? I’m not going to harp on this but I urge you to do what I did. I reached out to all of those that have caused me pain or hurt, and I sent them some love and words of encouragement. If it was too difficult to talk to some of them, it was obvious to me that I hadn’t forgiven them! Remember that there is no room for bitterness in the Kingdom of God.
Step four: Realise who you are in Christ! I took a day or two and spent as much time as I could just meditating on Jesus and on myself. I took a look at what I brought to the table. How does God use me in my daily life? What do I add to the Kingdom of God? During this step, I had to forgive myself for many things also. That was difficult to say the least. The main thing during this portion of the healing process was to see yourself as God sees you. To view yourself just as you are: A child of God.
Once you get through all of this, you must release all of your pain, anxieties, sufferings and wounds to Jesus. You have to seek deliverance. Remember that Jesus already took these things and nailed them to the cross! When He went to the grave and rose again, Jesus left those things on the cross of death. He didn’t rise back up with them, He rose just as HE IS!
On March 8, 2016, I was driving home from an event and I tried giving my mom a call. After the phone rang all the way through to her voicemail, I ended the call and set my phone in the passenger seat. In that very instant, I remember tears started streaming down my face and it was like all of that “stuff” that God showed me I was carrying around were no longer there! I felt my heart beating in my chest again and my mind synced with that heartbeat like it did at the start of this process, only this time, I realised something new. I looked to the Heavens and said “Father God, You just healed me, didn’t You?” After that, I began laughing like a crazy person and I know that the cars around me thought I was insane, but I didn’t care. I was healed in that moment! I am healed! My God healed me! Jehovah Rapha!
Just because I want to show you the importance of prayer and having prayer warriors, I want to boast on the Lord a little bit more. Later on that day, my mom texted me and it said this:
“This is what the prayer group prayed over you tonight. When you called me I didn’t have my ringer off so they started praying for you. Keep her laughter. Fight battles on different levels. Nothing not finished or accomplished. Find favor with superiors. Protection. Give vision of who she is in Christ. Wisdom. Scissors to cut through red tape. Favor of God. Things will be accomplished. Superiors will see a mighty warrior. Blessings on her. Will shine to draw many. Blessed where she walks. Mighty psalmist. Divine appointments. Songs will bring deliverance. Authority she walks in. She knows who she belongs to. Give peace joy favor wisdom fresh revelation. Angels around her to keep her safe.”
So, while I was receiving my healing from God, my mother and prayer warriors for standing in the gap for me. This is how I know that no weapon formed against us can prosper! This is how I know, for certain, that even when the enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy us, God will lift us up and protect us!
Brothers and sisters, God is so faithful. I understand that you are struggling and some of you are even fighting for your lives, but He wants to heal you because you are His. 2 Timothy says, “God knows who are His.” I urge you to trust in your healing God, Jehovah Rapha, TODAY! Get out of your predicament and let God…
I would love to pray with you and seek our Father for your healing. May The Lord bless and keep you!